Holy snappin’ duck shit Batman  🙁

My body is soooo pissed off with me for subjecting it to being so sedentary yesterday that is getting it’s revenge.  i have had the worst migraine headache of my life all day.  My head feels like it’s been wrapped in a halo of painful fuzziness with piercing pain through my temples and behind my eyes.  My entire head is aching so much that even my teeth feel painful.  There is also an extremely painful lower back thing going on and I can feel my heartbeat in painful pulses down my neck and across my shoulders.

On top of this I have been feeling nauseous all day from the pain which makes this the worst day to go to a local gourmet restaurant for a degustation lunch  🙁  I couldn’t eat hardly a thing so that was a good waste of $60 for me,

Double up on the drugs for me tonight i think.

I’ve not been writing as much as I used to.  Mostly because I’m trying really hard not to constantly bitch and moan about how much pain and discomfort my back is causing me.  The problem is that back pain occupies so much of my waking thoughts that I often feel that I think about naught else.  It is exhausting trying to ignore pain all day and leaves me with nothing to write that doesn’t resemble this…..

Monday
Didn’t sleep so good.
Feel dopey from the medication.
My back is killing me and my neck feels ‘crunchy’.
I still have that head ache from last Tuesday.

Tuesday
Didn’t sleep so good.
Feel dopey from the medication.
My back is killing me and my neck feels ‘crunchy’.
I still have that head ache from last Tuesday.

Wednesday
Didn’t sleep so good.
Feel dopey from the medication.
My back is killing me and my neck feels ‘crunchy’.
I still have that head ache from Tuesday week ago.

Thursday
Didn’t sleep so good.
Feel dopey from the medication.
My back is killing me and my neck feels ‘crunchy’.
I still have that head ache from Tuesday week ago.

Friday
Didn’t sleep so good.
Feel dopey from the medication.
My back is killing me and my neck feels ‘crunchy’.
I still have that head ache from Tuesday week ago.

Saturday
Didn’t sleep so good.
Feel dopey from the medication.
My back is killing me and my neck feels ‘crunchy’.
I still have that head ache from Tuesday week ago.

Sunday
Didn’t sleep so good.
Feel dopey from the medication.
My back is killing me and my neck feels ‘crunchy’.
I still have that head ache from Tuesday week ago.
Not looking forward to another week that resembles this one.

So on days where I have remained silent I think it’s safe to say I could just pick one of the above.
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Or at least they would if I substitute ‘pretzels’ for ‘drugs’ and ‘thirsty’ for ‘dopey’.  Because dopey I certainly am nowadays (is nowadays a ‘real’ word?  If it is.. it certainly seems like a lazy sort of stupid’ word.  Hmmm… Oh, yeah so it is – nowadays – adverb 1.at the present day; in these times – blargh so much for that.)   Ummm.. Mr K walked in and now I have forgotten what I was going to say.

Oh yeah … dopey I can handle – sort of – well a little bit. 
I don’t mind being unable to drive in the mornings. 
I don’t mind going to see a movie and then forgetting it the next day. 
I don’t mind accidentally buying 3 times as much gold silk as I needed. 
I don’t mind forgetting to pay my phone bill.
I don’t mind accidentally overpaying the cleaner.

But I do mind very much when I’m cooking curry for dinner and absent mindedly put 3 TABLESPOONS of curry paste into the curry instead of the 3 TEASPOONS that the label recommends.   😐

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I’m not sure where the last two days have gone.

I think I lost them somewhere…

I honestly can’t remember what I’ve been doing over the weekend…. so I doubt it was interesting and I hope it wasn’t important.
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Ding!

Words Borys never thought she’d have directed at her! 

OMG.  I’ve know I’ve been rather vacant lately… forgetful, quiet, moody and very irritable.  And this is mostly (but not entirely) due to the side effects of some of the pain/sedative medications they’ve been giving me.  Ever looking for the silver lining – I’ve been very amused to read my own LJ as I can’t hardly remember half of what I’ve been dribbling on about.  Downside though… very drowsy in the mornings, rarely making sense until well in to the afternoon and I’ve been seeing movie, watching shows, talking to people, doing things and the completely forgetting all about it within a day or so!  :S  not good.  Anyway, the powers that be (read random quack number 36) sent to see another specialist to address the veritable plethora of medication I am on with a view to seeing if we could pare down some of the drugs.  The recommendation was to dump two of the pills I’ve been taking, but to take this other stuff instead…. and he actually said to me:

“Here, take this mild anti-psychotic medication – it’s usually prescribed for schizophrenia patients, but in your case we’ll just start you off on a small dose and see if it has any benefits in altering your perception of pain.”