I made an ill advised decision last night to not take any valium before bed. I hate the way it makes me feel so stoned in the morning and it makes it really hard to get out of bed as I still feel so sleepy and dopey when I wake up. It turns out that this was
perhaps not my smartest move downright fucking stupid. I woke up feeling like I’d been hit by a truck in my sleep. I have no idea how I manage to stay asleep up until the moment of waking when my back screaming blue murder is the first thing I am cognizant of.
I rolled out of bed, tears streaming down my face, immediately took some pain killers and went searching for my heat packs …. which I had stupidly left on the floor. It’s amazing how overwhelmingly deflated one can feel over the prospect of having to try and lean down to pick up something off the floor. 😐
I need help.