Woke up this morning and I couldn’t sit up straight š I laid there for a while, working my jaw and trying to get some feeling back into my hands before attempting to roll out of bed. When I did finally manage to get out I found myself hanging onto the bedpost totally unable to move, my hands numb and my back causing me to moan and shudder in pain…. which is fine if you’re a consenting adult and you’ve negotiated a suitable safe word…. but definitely NOT okay if this if it’s just cos your drugs have worn off!!!! š
Getting up in the morning has become a trial of epic proportions. I can’t believe how much gritting of teeth and monumental fucking effort is involved in just getting up out of bed. After overcoming the seemingly insurmountable task of rising from my nocturnal recumbent posture, I stumbled to the bathroom and splashed my face with cold water (as is my regular habit), downed the nearest tablets and then went and laid back down for a few minutes, trying to remember to breathe as I did so.
It has recently been pointed out to me that I seem to have developed a strange habit of holding my breath when I perform movements that are causing me undue pain… difficult manoeuvres like rolling over, brushing one’s hair, putting on a t-shirt or perhaps getting up off the couch :S So after laying there for a few moments and the back pain not abating, I went to reach for some pills, only I couldn’t remember what I’d just taken in the bathroom moments earlier!
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