So if… Pain + Distance = Humour (which I’ve oft been told is the case) then someone out there is laughing their arses off at me right about now because I got me a fuckton of pain.   I’ve been in denial about this cough I’ve had since last Thursday and been dosing up on the Vitamin C and other useless immune boosting cold repellants and now it’s caught up with me and I can’t stop coughing.  Which wouldn’t be a problem if the coughing didn’t cause muscle spasms which in turn seems to be causing massive amounts of acute pain through my already pain riddled back/neck/spinal area, region whatever.  So today I’ve been doing this sort of ‘Cough-Ow!’ thing all day interspersed with the occasional ‘Sneeze – OMFG That Hurt!’

Enough enough enough enough enough…. It’s just an itty bitty cold why does it have to hurt so bad.
Sick of feeling crap ALL the time.  Need sleep.  Need more drugs.  Need better drugs.

DRUGS ARE BAD
… unless you are sick
… or depressed
… or having trouble sleeping
… or when you need to stay awake
… or when you need a little inspiration
… or when trying to win a sporting event
… or when trying to look cool
… or when you’re just not feeling 100%
but other than that they are BAD!!! 

Couple of years ago I started swing dancing for fun and fitness and it was – a tonne of fun and a really good aerobic workout to boot.  Since the car accident in Nov 2007 I haven’t been able to go anymore.  My back would occasionally arc up after swing dancing even BEFORE this most recent accident.  It would usually happen if one of my dance partners had done something silly like push you when they were supposed to pull you and then you’d get an awful pain shooting somewhere it most certainly should not be.

If I danced with the one partner or with the experienced dancers only it wasn’t too bad but given that dancing with learners occasionally gave me problems before I know that trying it now would be downright stupid.  🙁   Since I’ve been so inacting with my crunchy neck problem that flares up even just on walking there’s no way I can go swing dancing.  I’d likely end up flat on my back for half a week following chugging down on pain killers if I were stupid enought to attempt it. 

The tender manner in which I am forced to walk and the horrid nausea that accompanies a wander of more than about 100m definitely indicates that dancing for fitness is probably right out it.  When the crunching gets really bad I have to look as far down as possible to the point where my chin is right down on my collarbones to stop feeling like I’m giong to chuck up.  Stairs are even worse.  I can’t climb a flight of stairs without the crunching immediately causing the gag reflex  🙁

I’d really like to go back to dancing but given the difficulties that I have when walking and going up or down a flight of stairs… I don’t really anticipate there will be any dancing in my foreseeable future.