I am currently unable to drive in the morning due to side effects of the nightly medications – and the pain clinic starts at 07:30. Additionally, there’s no spaces available at after school are for the Small Child and with the Clinic finishing at 15.30 each day I wouldn’t get there until well after 16.00. The Workcover Nazi (mka a Case Manager) is treating me like I’m trying to skive out of participating even though it was my idea to go to this clinic in the first place!
So I found myself beating a path to the GP to try and rework my medications so I could drive in the mornings. But that was ultimately a bit pointless because i’ve already been trying to mess with the doses to see if I i could diminish the nasty side effects. Unfortunately the only thing that seems to allow for safe driving in the morning and preferably having some semblance of being compos mentis is to go without the medications all together. Going without the drugs though means that basically I won’t get any sleep at all and then wake up with ridiculously severe pain from not taking themuscle relaxants etc.
The Workcover Nazi said I could get taxi vouchers, but that isn’t going to change the fact that I can’t get any one to pick up the Small Child after school and not even the WorkCover people can pull child care places out of their butts. I just wish they weren’t so damn heavy handed. I don’t understand why they’re so adamant that I start immediately, when I could do it in a couple of weeks time when I’ve arranged for a bit more support. They’re being so pushy and I have no idea why.
Then on the drive on the way home from the GP I had someone pull out into the traffic in front of me when there wasn’t much of a gap. I’ve been paranoid on the road like you wouldn’t believe since the last car accident and little things like this have happened a few times and it just sends me into a tailspin. I had to pull over and I was crying uncontrollably, knuckles white on the steering wheel, feeling like I couldn’t breathe and just a feeling of rising panic … I just wanted to close my eyes and make the world go away.
All up – not my best day and I will still have to get back onto the WorkCover people on Monday and try to talk some reason to them about the lack of after school care.
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