Time to try and change tack here. I’ve been down, extremely down. It happens to the best of us, and it happens to chronic pain sufferers and people diagnosed with chronic major depressive disorders, all the fucking time. With the big ticket items (like good health, a pain free and drug free life, and more children) being well and truly out of reach on the ‘too high shelf’ I think it’s time to start trying to focus on the little things.
So I’m going to try and make a list of things that make me happy and then I’m going to try and start spending more time focusing of The Good Stuff(tm) no matter trivial, how silly, how meaningless or how unimportant they might seem… just feeling the need to hang on to, and acknowledge the little things.
THINGS THAT MAKE ME HAPPY
cuddles with my son
walking in heavy rain getting drenched
loud music that makes you want to dance
rolling around on soft carpet
cheese and wine shared with friends
big hugs at the end of a long day
finding a truly eloquent turn of phrase
listening to Straddie birds outside my house
laughing so hard you end up crying
having a clean kitchen with clear empty surfaces
being the little spoon
having someone brush my hair
a mug of port on a cold night
sliding into clean sheets on my bed
having my feet tickled
canoodling on the couch to watch a movie
sharing Fruit Tingles with the Not So Small Child
bubble wrap, ’nuff said
passionate debates about world issues over dinner
getting my nails done so I feel like a girly-girl
finishing a job, any job, and doing it well
crunching sweet corn off the cob
watching otters mingle and play
staring into campfires
ticking things off my many ‘to do’ lists
warm sun on my back in cold weather
non-window enveloped snail mail
feeling safe and comfortable in my home
watching the sunrise somewhere new
guacamole any time, anywhere
tickets for anything – looking forward to stuff
wrapping my hands around a hot drink
green tree frogs
reading books I loved as a child
the smell of the mock oranges at night
looking through A’s baby photos (sad but wonderful)
Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.
Mahatma Gandhi